Daddy Issues

I know there are plenty of people that can relate to a similar issue that I had and am currently still going through. Being 23 years old and still having daddy issues is not where I want to be. My father and I haven’t always had the best relationship, a lot of mistakes that he made has definitely jeopardized what could been between us. When I grew up and was finally able to understand the situation, I was angry with him for basically giving up and not stepping up to the plate and making it better. When he got really sick I was there for him, but once he felt better the relationship went right back to being the same. My relationship with my father has definitely had a large impact on my relationship with men, the way I look at love, and even the way that I have looked at myself. I’ve never had him tell me I was beautiful or be there for me when my heart was broken by some little knucklehead. He missed out on a lot of big milestones in my life and never once apologized for that. I can say honestly I have held a lot of resentment towards him because there are children out there that dont even have the opportunity to know their father, and here I am knowing my father and wanting him in my life and he does a half ass job. Every relationship works two ways, you cant have just one person putting in all the work and expecting it to change. I’ve been stuck in a place where I feel like giving up and moving on with my life but then he’ll text me and I’ll get sucked back all over again. It is very frustrating and upsetting because a father’s presence is very important in a girl’s life. My mother has definitely put in overtime stepping up for what he lacked. I will always love my father, but I do not like the person he is. It has been one disappointment after the next, and I can’t keep living my life expecting him to change. I’ve learned to love myself, and through those failed relationships I’ve found someone that truly understands and loves me. I would never wish bad on anyone because that’s not who I am, but I only wish that he doesn’t figure all this out before it’s too late.

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